I sit up at night and try to remember why I came back here.
Although all the reasons don't really make since.
Maybe it was to get away to figure out who I want to be or who I will be.
I didn't come here to fall in love.
I didn't come here to get involved.
& whether I try to convince myself that didn't happen I would be lieing......
You looked so innocent I might of believed if I didn't know.
All the secrets that didn't surface until the end.
I kept myself apart from any kind of emotion until you hit the spot in my heart that no one really
sees... a little innocent boy who has been hurt by someone before.
I look through my son to see people, since he has such good judgement.
his heart is so big, and loving..
& I guess I thought if he got attached it was ok for me to.
I don't knw where I got off thinking that things would be any different than they were now.
After all the lies, games, and words its ended here.
You showed me what its like to be hurt, hurt to the point where I still would have given anything to make sure you were happy.
I still never lost my faith in seeing something no one else did.
after broken bridges with not only myself but with my family.
I end it here,
nothings ever forgotten and nothings ever left un learned.
people come and go and they leave an impact in your life.
so as much as i want to hate this person I can't I can only use it as a lesson...
and it has only made me see where I want to be.
& it has helped me make decesions that will only change my life and heart later.
